“Break the old pattern of present- moment denial and present- moment resistance. Make it your practice to withdraw attention from past and future whenever they are not needed. Step out of the time dimension as much as possible in everyday life.”
I have always been pretty self-aware about my emotions and feelings, but never aware of life itself- of each moment as it comes. Therefore, never allowing myself to experience a moment to its fullest. I recently purchased this book- Practicing the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. Within the first couple of pages I was already in awe, realizing that I have not been letting myself fully live! I am finally understanding what has been holding me back.I’m going to be realer than real with you- I get angry. I complain. I nag. What I have recently noticed is, those feelings and actions are stemmed from bitterness. A remembrance of my past pops in my head and instead of shaking it off, I soak it up and make myself mad all over again which ends up taking away from the moment I was currently in.
“All problems are illusions of the mind. Focus your attention on the now and tell me what problem you have at this moment. I am not getting an answer because it is impossible to have a problem when your attention is fully in the Now. A situation needs to be either dealt with or accepted. Why make it into a problem?”
Bitterness affects not only me, but those around me. My bitterness affects my attitude, mindset, the way I talk to people- my whole vibe and energy. Who wants to be around bad energy?! I don’t! I also don’t want to waste my days by harshing resentment on past mistakes.
Not only have I been letting bitterness affect the Now, but also the hope I have in the future- so much hope that I have been rushing time and missing out on the present. From planning a first birthday party for a one month old to being obsessed with a goal.
“If you set yourself a goal and work toward it, you are using clock time. You are aware of where you want to go, but you honor and give your fullest attention to the step that you are taking at this moment. If you then become excessively focused on the goal, perhaps because you are seeking happiness, fulfillment, or a more complete sense of self in it, the Now is no longer honored.”
From here on out, I will take in every moment as they come.